i'd worked very hard at the beginning of my secondary school life.
no more push to pull me through.
no more lasting adreanaline.
no more motivations.
excuses.
a load of crap.
ha.
actually, a teacher told some students this.
and i had actually accpeted the idea, and felt that,
yes, i'm one of these people.
it was only after yesterday,
did i realise that.
yes,
this is life.
you just have to get on with it.
"life is like that, everywhere is like that." (adapted from singapore dreaming, haha)
so, darkangel, you mean you wanna slack the rest of your life away?
thinking that you are one hardworking dude,
who had just lost the drive now?
what the hell.
do you want to return the school next year?
with a cheerful look, you greet your juniors.
after that, left the school with a teary face.
wishing that you could turn back time again?
you had already turned back the time in your dreams.
be grateful.
you had already experienced what it feels like.
if you didn't study hard enough for your first major checkpoint in life.
and, what are you going to do with it???
from trendy:
the pain you will face leading to success is much better than the feeling of regret when you know you didn't try hard enough.what legacy will i leave? (although i don't wish to die yet)
what future will i face?
perhaps everything isn't fated.
it just boils down to my choice.
it's all in my hands.
and it's all up to me...
more motivational messages, please!
{&illustrated world?-}
2:08 PM
happy birthday caroline!
just look at the number of september babies!
the list includes sis and mum as well!
haha.
well, actually wanted to blog a month later.
because of, a number of reasons.
anyway, had amaths paper 2 and bio practical today.
during the amaths test,
i was like,
scolding myself?
i was cursing myself.
now that my anger had subsided,
i shall not harbour too much on it.
oh wait,
let me just add on a little more.
i dreamt about something the other day.
i got into my lift at 7.28am,
and my history paper begins at 8am.
yet, i cannot feel the sense of urgency.
i went back to take something, despite being already late.
the lift got jammed.
i'm stuck.
when everything's over,
rushed to school.
i was late.
8.38am.
(is God trying to help me win lottery? haha. why do i keep seeing numbers?)
had to stand outside the examation hall for 5 minutes.
I closed my eyes.
told myself.
please let me turn back the time. please.i opened my eyes.
broke out in cold sweat.
yes.
thank you, God.
i will treasure my chance.
a rush of adrenaline.
which lasted for half an hour.
sighs.
so, back to the amaths paper,
i did the same thing.
but, no no,
i'm still here.
amaths.
what the hell.
didn't study hard.
yet, i expect fantastic results...
i forgot to label that darn bloody shoot for bio prac!
what the sickening shit.
i'd completed the practical kinda fast.
was dreaming away,
instead of really checking through.
sians la.
wah feel like blogging more.
{&illustrated world?-}
1:38 PM
