HOW I WISH... contact lenses
shades
a new guitar
a harmonica
musical box
bikini??? (wahahah, next year)
a billabong cap, not visor
a white dress
an overseas CIP trip
an overseas trip to BALI with friends
see hong junyang performing in my school
good results
highlighted hair
death note!!!!!
more plush toys!
no more pollution!
drum set
improve my pool skills?
be a better bowler =p
Hates(:
smokers!!!! that's all at the moment..
{{ Friday, September 21, 2007
the trees swayed, the branches creaked, the leaves rustled... i closed my eyes. i leaned forward, head titled up towards the wide, creamy blue sky..
"who is that girl i see; staring straight back at me...when will my reflection shows, who i am inside...."
first 3 months; i made a pact to myself. though i'm not staying in a jc, got to still study.. must give my best in whatever i do.. and what did i do? online for hours and hours each day. didn't catch sufficient sleep, and slacked my time away just like that..
ok. got the o's results. gonna still continue working hard. that feeling. when hard work pays off. it's damn rejuvenating. and a better reason to work hard: i'm staying in a jc. i'm pursuing the academic pathway...
what did i do? stared blankly, whenever i'm revising. gave myself excuses; i will work harder after the syf. switched off during lectures, tutorials undone. copy answers, and many more...
in no time at all, mid year. told myself, i'm doomed. but hey, the promos is of a greater percentage. must do well. i can do it. and what happened? after temasek seminar, i will study...after national day, i gonna mug...after teachers' day, i will go full engine...and in all, what have i done?
6 days more. the short term test looms. i'm just actually disappointing myself. i don't think anyone expects anything high of me. it's just myself that i'm letting down...
self-reflection. sarah goh. i'm utterly disappointed. and i know, after promos, it will be the same thing again.
it's like, now, when i score badly for my tests, i no longer feel as sad. it's like i have turned into a stick figure, one devoid of disappointment....
my drive came too late... my future seem so bleak.. can't believe i'm aiming just to pass...