:D thank you God :D

haha. went to alma matar just now. got all the powerpoint slides from mr tan...even the "student A" and the "student B" slides..hehe. student A is really lin lin. i lifted the obstructing object and took a look at the name. as for student B, so she is !!!!! hehe. not from our class, that is.. (the exclaimation marks do not suggest anything of the person's name)

hmm..what else to blog..

haha. don't feel strongly for anything..meaninglesss to list them down...

oh, yeah..i will be very busy once the 3 months ends...haha. that's what car says so..after being my friend for so many years, i'm glad she knows me this well =) hopefully, i will still leave some time for studying..no, i must put aside some time...

our superstar! haha. 17th of march, if i'm not wrong! go go go!!

few minutes before 2.30pm on 9th feb...

i suspect the voice belongs to sin ying..hehe..

9th feb. after the girls' gathering at mac..

1S01's pizza contract! yeah..a pizza feast next week. thank you teachers..been wanting to eat those goodies since last year!

sis's valentine's gifts! haha..the best part is.....

her friends gave me as well! hahaha..thanks to yx and haha, annoymous?

haha. I'M NO MARIA! just feeling bored. needed some adrenaline?

videographer --> agnes. chereographer ----> agnes.. that's why this video is lame..hehe.

arghs..need to help mum carry the CNY goodies..gonna go..update more photos or videos next time!

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11:30 AM

fickle-mindedness. but now, i have chosen. srjc, same combi. same PAE pals. same PAE CT. hehe. we have less than 2 years to spend together. let's make the full use of it. 1s01, we will work hard together! =D

the class outing yesterday...bought a puzzle for mr sala. haha. the last gift given to the CT during the first intake. i hope we finish the puzzle fast...

today. haha. went srjc again. with keli and cai ying. i think it is good for cai ying to speak to my teacher. so, yeah..we went there to choose as well. had a chance to speak to keli's bio tutor. mrs chen. i like her. she is so like me. asking for love stories...hahahaha..if i do become a teacher next time, i will also ask for my students' love stories...hehe...

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7:51 AM

SARAH GOH, POLY IS JUST AS TOUGH. KEEP THAT IN MIND. POLY IS JUST AS TOUGH.

ARGHS!! I REALLY DON'T KNOW NOW. STAYING IN SRJC BECAUSE OF MY FRIENDS. BECAUSE OF MY CCA. NOW THAT I'VE DECIDED TO CHANGE COMBI, I WON'T HAVE MY PAE PALS! I WON'T HAVE MY PAE CT...

ARGHS...I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! I REALLY DON'T! MY FUTURE CAREER - TOURISM? POLY : THE DOOR IS WIDELY OPEN FOR ME...

STAYING IN A JC, NO RELEVANCE TO MY FUTURE CAREER!

TELL ME WHAT TO DO..GIVE ME A LITTLE CLUE...WHAT HAS LIFE GOT IN STORE FOR ME? 6 DAYS ISN'T ENOUGH...CAN I JUST STAY ON IN MY SECONDARY SCHOOL? SIGHS.

LIFE AFTER SECONDARY SCHOOL..SUCKS.

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3:25 PM

okay. i have recovered. thanks to all those whom i have chatted with. jc will be the choice. subject combination? let it matter the next time...

class outing today. 9 turned up in total. i think 5 are confirmed leaving..hmmm..they were saying me.. staying in sr, but changing combi? sighs. i don't know leh. i really hope to be with my class. wonderful people. wonderful CT. i know they are the ones who will play, and study at the same time. i can tell. we will help each other. but...bio..bio..why am i always stuck with bio? haha. at this point at which i'm writing, i suddenly thought of this..at the beginning of sec 2, i wanted to take physics, but changed my mind to taking bio in the end...hmm..am i fated to choose bio? then, what about history? i will definitely put econs in..it's so practical and relevant. but this will mean that my fate with history ends...

arghs. what the hell man. i'm assuming again..assuming i will choose bio and be with my class. hmmm, 2 spa subjects..and my practical skills suck...but, caring classmates, caring teacher.

well, just go for jc man. since it's fated. listen to nothing no more. go for jc. decide for the combi nex time. sarah goh, this is my decision for you. hey wait, can i take 2 h1 subjects?

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12:21 AM

ARGHS! THE MORE I LISTEN, THE MORE CONFUSED I GET! CONVERSATION WINDOWS. GO POLY. GO JC. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

I have decided on my future career. but, is that what i really wanted? what if i found out that I like other things more? so, should I even specialize in that and get into a poly? or should i just stay on in a jc and have two more years to decide?

JC - can i cope with GP? the stress. it's like, you got to revise every day. cannot afford to slack. and there's the chinese. normally, people who get a1 in chinese for the o's will get B, this is what was told by my chinese teacher. and there's the maths. my maths suck like shit, i just now. i don't have the maths brain. please do not compare... if i had to give each subject the same amount of hard work, can i still survive man?

Poly - the grass on the other side of the road isn't always greener.. poly is just as tough, although you get to slack a bit in year 1..

what the hell?! jc - my guitar syf, my guitar concert. but no more PAE classmates, no more PAE CT...

GOD! what have you planned for me? give me a little hint?

hmm. i think i'm very irritating. cast your choice and don't look back! arghs!

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3:37 PM

whao. baboon said the happiness will sink in today. but, i still don't feel anything great.

as i listen to twilight chapter 7, composed, directed and sung by jay chou. memories return..

the lyrics has got nothing to do with studies. haha. i just love the song. the world is filled with evilness; darkangels, mutants of goody angels - definition just arose from that single song. haha. and when i walked to to school for my study groups during the study break, that song would always be playbacked. i love the song. i love the story behind it. but the MV that i'm putting on my blog is a cut-short version of that actual song. so, i don't think many will understand.

haha. memories......are always beautiful-er than reality.....finally..we are really out of the school. no more reason to go back except to see the occupants there....

this is gonna be boring. i'm listing down all these memories as i felt that they are fading and i got to remember every detail..

friday - 3 days before chinese o's...
wai mun, mong shui and i went to find mdm de. or rather, i was studying with keli. then, she saw us and asked if we wanted to see her.
last minute touch-up on stuff. because there was the history appointment.
then, louis came and sat down with us..
and mrs tan carried on the clarification in the library with leonard and gang. joined them later. discussed about plans regarding where we should meet. suggested my house..and.....i forgot about the rest.

english oral - teachers cheering for us all the way.. scared. "you speak perfect singlish" keeps revolving round my head. what if..oh my gawd. and up to now, i'm still unsure. what tenses to use. for the picture discussion..for the conversation part, it was about, "have i ever performed before" or something. i said yes. guitar, speech day, racial harmony concert, kind of like a superstar as kids asked for my signature. wahahaha. what a lie. spilled my water that day too. the water evaporated very fast though. it was as if the water was trying to say, your turn will be over soon..don't worry..

bio prac - before we went in, smelled onion...damn clumsy. testing of starch. and i did not even take the leave out. of course, it got to be a negative test. what a goon. i thought i would have enough time. 6 marks - blank. yeah. mr peh was the examinor? ooh. kept cracking jokes with us. did my chem tys while waiting for us to get dismissed.

monday - chinese o's for the people who retook. didn't study as hard as during the first time. saw the examinor who looks like ms peh. haha. was thinking of what my sis thought of the paper. yeah, hoping the best for her and me. and my class...
after the paper, lin said i looked confident. views regarding what should be written exchanged. stunned. i've forgotten to write that down. confidence level dropped. will i still be able to acheive what i want?

next examination up - chem prac. was clumsy again. hands shivering.
mr teoh was there. prayers- he had prayed, i thought of..spilled potassium permanganate..my shoes kena.. fortunately, it's not SPA.
continued with the experiment. got 24.6 i think. while in the holding room, mr teoh came to look for me. he asked for my value and said that he would not reveal his value as he was afraid that some people might break down.
after 1pm, huat ge told us that mr teoh's value was also 24.6..woo hoo! hehe..
but huat ge said he would give me 0 marks for my special 4 marks question. saddened; heart shattered. no tears though.
tution - i said "eh-er" as soon as i saw mr chua. sighs..

then there was emaths paper 1. heart shattered again when i learnt that the loci question was wrong. smsed mr lim to ask about the question. sighs. sad.
at night, terence came over. taught me. then chatted for 1 hour. we got o's! yet we still chatted for such a long time! i was regretful..

and on the same day, there was SS. ummm, the weekend before SS, i broke down a lot of times. that sat, there was lessos conducted by mrs tan, let her mark my paper. cannot acheive what i wanted. it's like i'm always writing rubbish that is irrelevant.. i teared. yeah..i was really depressed. suicidal thoughts filled my mind. 4 years. my humanities. to end it like that? called terence. he told me a lot of good points for the topics that i did not attempt.
read sister's notes - the topic that i had attended!haha. and i memorized the conclusion as well...so, i must really thank my sister and her teacher..

english - felt nothing. just hope that i can get a b3. terence smsed me late at night to tell me that i should read through mr lin min's notes. =.= don't know where i had kept even..

bio - the day before that, stayed back in school. haha. went through with ms lim some questions. studied really hard for reproduction in plants and animals but very little was tested on those chapters. damn those chapters. and, yeah mr tay came to help us with the studying as well..i remembered asking, "there is cilia in womb" that made keli laughed non stop. hehe.

emaths paper 2 - long paper. after the exam, i told myself i can no longer hope for As..

amaths paper 1 - damn angry with myself. yeah. stupid mistakes. costly marks lost.

and...chem...
mr teoh was praying. clarified some doubts with him. he prayed for my friends as well. and just before i stepped into the hall, he asked me to turn behind. he prayed for me again. clarity of mind. yeah. thank you very much mr teoh. nonetheless, after i have scanned through the papers i felt that it was even more difficult than our school's prelims...it was harder. but i had clarity of mind. hehe.

after chem, there were shouts. last paper for the geographers. but for historians, one more day. lotsa to catch up. it was the last paper. so, lotsa things were left to the last moment..
just as i was going home, saw mrs tan. sin ying stayed with me. some touch up on history. then sin ying went home. i was alone with mrs tan. the time was 6 plus already..hehe.. then, i suddenly told mrs tan..she was my teacher for 3 years. form and co-form. my english, history and SS teacher..haha. and. tmr, the last day. and we are gone. Ohhhh. it's so..........
she wished me luck for the subject. get the As...and yeah, history and amaths paper 2 the next day. enough said of amaths. history - i did the conferences question. there were so few historians.. the SBQ this year was so special...and....yeah. the o's is over! hugs. smiles. went to look for mr teoh. our jamming session. it was a pity he was gone. so..yeah. day ended. O"S IS OVER!

wow. my memories. how we have mugged. how we have advanced. all together...the process is so.......

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10:55 AM