woo..went for a night run with terence just now.his stamina is fantastic. i think i'm slowly gonna be trained like your cadet?hehe. but i guess i want more.provided if you are free.hehe.realised something.my mental strength is very weak.when i jog alone, i tend to just slow down. i need encouragement.hopefully, with more of such running, i will build up on my mental strength. hehe.---------------------------------------------------------------------------when one thing goes wrong, a dominio effect is initiated.it all begin with the bad dream i had.for those who knows, i now think that the fruit is an enlarged version of my pimple.hahahaha! so disgusting right.and terence still said he wants it. hahaha.after the dream, after i brushed my teeth,i went back to sleep.was half an hour late for lecture.thankfully wasn't scolded.then, i threw the wrong correction tape away, the one like 3/4 full of tape waiting for me to use...next, maths tutorial unhappiness.i didn't complete qn 2c.and i didn't attempt any questions thereafter.don't like to go to tutorials unprepared.unhappy.haha. but to begin with, i was the one who chose not to complete it.unhappy with myself of course.but unhappiness is not equal to stress.winnie said i now so stressed next year will be worse.but i know. i only feel like this at that particular moment only.halfway through chem, was thinking.aiya. pangseh clique to do homework.mugger's style.so decided to just go.alright not all unlucky things happened together.good news came.maths tutorial postponed!yeah. go out with an ease of mind!my addiction to games is back. long back actually.i refused to leave the place we went for lunch because i was playing the XBOX there. hehe. i hope trendy buys the game =Xthen guitar.AUDITION!they asked me to go. but...haiz.after i see how fun they are acting,really feel like joining man.but then.lijiang meeting.i think i'm pretty XXX la.and also XXX.arghs.all in all. i think.i think.haha. gonna write on my reflection logbook.it's things about myself.what i feel of myself.don't get mistaken, people.haiz.haiz.arghs.after that,also haiz.i know at the end of my entry,people reading will also haiz,haiz all the way,so what is troubling me?haha. my reflection logbook will know.---------------------------------------------------------------------------when will my reflection show who I am inside?who exactly am i?perhaps i'm nothing.i'm just what i am now.perhaps.perhaps.i should never have XXXperhaps.perhaps.it is just the carrot and stick theory.haiz.my memory.the way i think.gets me nowhere in life.C and D.the characteristics i want.haiz.throughout my life,how many chances have i got?and how many times have i done well?haiz.Labels: haiz
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5:19 PM
haiz...haiz...haiz.....arghs...i feel like going to the beach.but i scared i will attract attention.if i were to shout.haiz..really feel like shouting..maybe should go one of the rooms in kbox. no one can hear..haiz...haiz...happy birthday hui qun and terry!the dinner trip with them kinda cheered me a little.but after that..haiz...think gonna sleep late.more later.Labels: haiz
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8:51 PM
i realised that he was...a leader..born leader..realised this only a day before the funeral.but i'm glad the trait got passed down..rest in peace.Labels: ...
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8:06 PM