there is something i must blog.i can't stand myself.i complain too much.if i were in thier shoes,i'm bound to complain.definitely.yet, both of them are so nice.appreciating every effort.one said we are a team and there is nothing like i do more than you.darkangel,i think you need to change.acutally i know this is a problem since i was a kid.now that's i'm an adult,stop behaving like a child.thank you my dears.xin ku le =)blog and change, blog and change.and me being me,not being over sensitive over small little things.arghs.change for the better! Labels: ...
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3:38 PM
2 happy events to blog about =)first, our olympics day.aiya actually what for i think of what to blog lest people find my blog..clarence did a search for my blog and found it.arghs.gonna change it someday.then i will edit my sec 2 posts so that nothing that can identify me will be revealed!hehe.ok olympics.xinyi met me at my mac.haha.bought breakfast for them also.i love mac man.then next,the fund raising event.we sold everything out in the shortest amount of time.and our cost price was really low.hahaha.i even helped PUB to sell.liyan should seriously thank me.the guitar teacher ICs all bought their drinks for me. hehehehe.right next. went to classroom.classmates were studying.i was so sianed.went next classroom.and sang my heart out.using yuan lin's mp3.haha.xin yi was there also.after that, very soon,it was 8X50m.good job man 2S08!we emerged 3rd!with people from sports CCA.hehehe.this is the second time i had particiapated as a runner since primary school.i was the 8th runner.hehe.fun man.guy3 they all accussed me of being dao.they said they kept cheering for me, yet i didn't turn and look at them at all.haha.christine took a picture of me before the race began.they said that i looked like i was posing.quite a spastic pose.hehe.hope michele can faster send me the photo.basically, fun!yuan lin was so happy that she teared.hehe.next we joined tug-o-war and novelty race but didn't win anything.speakin of novelty race 3,i think there is some unfairness lor.but nevermind. it's over.should have joined the 20X200 man.my house got first haha.rights next event.the arrival of lin!finally lor.had fun chatting.most of the time, we were nt reminising the past.we were talking about her favourite topic since last year.hehe.actually due to some last minute arrangments, some cannot come.so in the end, there is only us, car and trendy.hoho.guitar camp tomorrow.hope it will not be screwed.please!arghs.damn tired.chem mock spa.flunk already.Labels: .....
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12:00 AM
one full day of school followed by guitar admin again..well, in this time of fear,when prayers so often prove in vain, haha, need lotsa support from the people around me.and here i would like to thank xinyi..it's like when i complain to her about the level of stress i'm facing as in like how much more work is waiting for me, the natural tendancy of every student (or nope, let me qualify that), of every hardworking but not-so smart-student, is to agree enthusiastically and go and blabbering about how much work she or he also have.but xinyi, she kindly gave me tips which i supposed i know on how to be time efficient. and the night after, she sent me an sms, i think it is related to managing time between guitar and studies. yup. and i think this simple gesture of hers greatly delights me. perhaps you guys may think it is nothing, but i'm different. i need all the support i can get. having tuition doesn't guarantee you an A. people with no tuition definitely can beat those who have. anyway, if tuition is so great, everyone will try to go tuition whether or not they have the financial means to do so.jc is the time in which i feel so badly looked down upon. my sheer success was regarded as everyone-can-do-it-if-they-want and my failure will be you-are-a-dumbass-better-worse-dead. the problem with me is, the more i think about it, the more intense the emotion. today i was told off.aimless, no plan. that's because i thought the other party knew what to get.i did want to ask from you.but ya ya. i got told off.right in front of others.again, the more i think about it, the more bu shuang i feel.but yeah my emotions fluctuate damn easily.i will be ok by tomorrow. jc, the half adult timeline, i think i'm more opened up to how the whole society fuctions now. i have a different kind of perception and attitude towards people in general. if i have become more evil, the society has transformed me.....lin is coming on thurs!yup, she has long changed her timing already.i just hope i can piece the best part of my life in sec school with the best aspect in jc.or sec school alone is enough, i guess..seriously, the idea of a failure from jc doesn't come from me alone.sometimes, people around me just drill that into my brain. if i had my concepts right,and i hope i will do it before the As,i will be like sala.giving hope.i can feel his genuine belief. and i believe i can spread his genuine belief,after i piece my broken pride.after cca admin is completely over,i hope the mood comes.let's see if i put my heart and soul into it,will i still be a moron. i'm not saying i'm not.i hope i'm not.but let's just see.Labels: volcano
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2:20 PM
i'm escaping.
breaking free.
not facing up,
to reality.
my over-sensitivness plus pride,
makes matters all too worse for me.
sighs.
i don't feel like doing my homework.
and i know i have got lots to catch up.
loads and loads.
i sat down and thought.
what if i failed tomorrow's tests?
nah. it's all too common for me.
i dreamt about myself being trapped in a house just now.
the area was reducing inches by inches,
and voices were crying out to me, "you are a failure, you are a failure."
i wasn't deep asleep.
i could have lashed back at those voices
but i just let them continue.
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5:34 AM
