sorry people.whatever you say, i'm still feeling the same.math paper 2.finally.i could say.this is my best.not because i have done well.in fact, i already know i got like 15 marks gone.that's excluding careless mistakes.my best because.i persevered through................................~ if you avoid distractions in life, you'll go very far..~ don't rest on your laurels and continue striving for better results!i was packing my stuff when i saw these comments.the thing about getting distracted,so very true.the one who wrote this knows me well.haha.econs and chem next week.damn slack the whole of today.yesterday very unproductive.arghs!if i want to repeat,i must kill myself in the chem or bio papers.i don't want to do it on econs.i hate this feeling!Labels: journey
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4:55 PM
Doesn't matter if I winOr the colour of my skinCause this race is all aboutBelieving in yourselfi guess.i am still lacking.the most ingredient to the recipe of success.BELIEF.math.10 marks.i kind of give up.in the end i regret.biology.genetic crossing.5 marks.i was right already.don't think so much and pen down your answer.and the marks will rightfully belong to you.chemistry.was already right!went to cancel my answer.and there isn't time to write another answer.sarah goh ar sarah goh.sometimes.i just feel like ending it all.and repeat.actually, many times.but handing in a blank paper requires courage as well.and my stance is still neither here nor there.the papers so far have been okay.to the on-the-ball student,in this final lap.if you lock yourself in your room to study,if you go to school every day,does it mean that you are on the ball?that's why i'm perceived as a mugger.even when i was stoning for days on end.HA.demoralisation ( if this word exists) ?my negative attitude killed me.sighs.now i know.jc.so easy to lose focus.i hate it.and i always say it.not fully prepared for A's.it sucks to think that preparation for econs is even more minimal.shit.if, if, if..
i would gladly accept.
then?
you chose it.
stop complaining.
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5:23 PM
i feel disappointed.
in the latest essays that i have written, it's like i have been passing and getting slightly better than a pass.
pass as in the actual 50 percent pass.
i think i have improved.
and i think given that,
i should be able to score perhaps a C in my essay component.and what the hell?first time,for the start of this year,i had butterlies in my stomach,for an examination.half an hour into the paper,i was still torn between choosing a few questions.my fickle mindedness at play, i wrote a few points for this question,and then went back to the previous question.in the end,i thought,since i have prepared so much for Science, go for it.and i committed suicide.just yesterday,i was telling myself never to do Science with morality.becuase i couldn't totally agree with the easier approach.in the end,my essay ended up like a piece of disjoined and childish writing.i so regret can.i wanted to see just how much i had improved.and yet it ended up like that.....:'(if i saw mdm tang just after my paper 1,i think i will cry in her arms.but anyway,was really delighted to see 2S08's mother.repeat.that's what my whole mind was filled with for the whole of today after my GP.math tomorrow.a subject i always did not bother,because i'm always stuck doing the question.and i gave up too easily.damn easily.mr kwek's words.i know he was just trying to encourage.i want to do well too.but with careless mistakes here, there, everywhere.and some conceptual errors,i absolutely have no confidence of tomorrow.if i repeat,i hope to do it back in school.but,i guess i may not qualify to repeat.sighs.people reading,don't feel demoralised.this is just me.don't let this affect you.Labels: GP :(
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6:10 PM
JUDGEMENT DAY IS JUST TOMORROW!i hate the feeling of not unleashing my full potential :(please and i sincerely implore,send me heading off to my next check point.thank you.
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12:50 AM