:D thank you God :D

kai ying asked me the other day..
what did i write for my a lvl essay..
i thought hard..
oh..
i wrote about myself, a downright dumbass, got no talents...
yet, dad sent me to a world renowned school of music..
there, i was discriminated against, my classmates never fail to bring me down...
but i worked v hard...
orh! i rmbed.
i did the "ying zhe tou pi chuang guo qu" that qn..
and yup, the words that inspired me were,
two kinds of people in the world.
one - smart by nature, slack, still can do well.
second - must work really hard, hard work can surpass the talented.

whether it is in real life, or in that fantasy which i have conjured up,
i belong to the latter.

haha after chatting with my seniors from 9.50 to now, 12.20, i guess..
i'm somewhat motivated.
oh my tian.

I LOVE MY 11TH GUITAR SENIORS!!!!
GATHERING SOON PLEASE!!!

or no..
during june?
haha..
march hols is damn packed.
friday, there's guitar from 10am to 6pm!

arghs.
let's not go to things that spoil my mood..
back to my seniors.. =DDDD

as usual, the guitar ensemble produce its scholars as well.
as what i expected, andreas really got straight As!
clive and andreas were in the same class, and since j1, they have always been getting the same ranking points.
so when clive told me that andreas too get he same marks as him, i was quite shocked. because i know his other grades..oops..erm, but still both were equally good.
haha..

and steamed fish!!!
oh my god..
we share so much similarites can!
as in o level english grade, a level chinese grade.. and gp!! i hope i can get like her man!!! OMG!! steamed fish said she will pray for me!!! i hope i hope i hope!!!

yeah..congrats to jasmine and daryl as well.. others - i don't know whether u all want me to congrat. erm.. as in you all got your As, but i don't know whether you guys are happy. so i guess it's a wiser choice to hold some reservations?

11th seniors rawk! i enjoy our syf moments man!

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4:27 PM

whoa. this time round, i was really lucky.
throughout jc, i always get B.
this time was different =)
thankfully i do not have to retake again. hehe.

hmm heard comment that people still didn't know what grade i was after reading this entry?
haha.
i got an A for chinese.
and this is the last time i'm taking chinese =D

it's like i got no feeling for the release of the results.
B is enough for me.
but i just keep thinking i will get C.
so when i saw my grades, i was huh?
but nothing more than that.
haha =)
maybe all my enthusiasm has been used up when shifu's name was flashed!!!
hoho!!!
ruimin's too!!!!!!
OMG!!!
SHE GOT STRAIGHT As!!!!
although us, shitsters kept telling her she will confirm get that,
she got that!!!!!
haha..
and of course...
PANG KAI JIAN!!!!!!
i kept telling him lah.
he of course can.. and he was lacking of confidence at that time!!
haha!
shifu didn't get straight As.
but his results was very good already!
and his GP, he didn't study a lot.
and yet, he could get that kind of grade.
shhh will not anyhow reveal others' grades if it's not A..
shifu got A for chem!
he really got to impart me all his skills man!!
so extreme lor..
i'm an U grader for chem and he's an A grader and yet he calls himself my shifu..haha..
and clive..
his results is very good although it's below his expectations.
talked to him just now. he is really disappointed.
but clive, no matter what, you are always my idol!
go for it man!

didn't have a lot of time to look at my seniors' grades.
oh no i remembered.. chun cai.
she once told me that she wanna go poly after getting her results.
and you know what she got??
actually i have forgotten.
haha.
but her results qualify her for a place in uni!
haha!

yeah don't have much time for interaction..
i still have so many seniors la!
sighs.
there was guitar after that.
sighs.

oh yeah, another random thought of the day.
i seriously think too much.
aiya.
i damn stupid.
worried so much for nothing.
i imagined everything.
crazy girl.
but then again,
that's the one and only darkangel...

=D ruimin, shifu and kai jian you guys gonna give us a treat! =p

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1:47 PM

i think at that time, the feeling was a sense of loss.
=)

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12:10 PM

it's over!

yes!!

for the whole of my entire jc life up to this point in time,
this is the first time,
which i feel that i like bio a little =D

arghs.
alright, stop sprouting nonsense, just like chun yuan man.
haha.

today..
I GOT MY LIFE BACK!!!
we went SUSHI TEI for lunch.
food there was really expensive..
there were no students - only working adults.
stephan brought us there.
had a fulfilling lunch =D
oh yeah..
yuan lin didn't join us.
because she has odac stuff to complete.
and right now,
i have guitar stuff to do.
haiz.
speaking of guitar,
still must go back tomorrow at 930 for guitar.
sighs.

then after lunch, we went to catch the LEAP YEARS.
hehe.
wanted to watch L initially,
but yeah settled on this show.
we saw ALAMAK.
haha!
LION KING if you don't get what i mean.
winnie told me first.

yeah enjoyable time today! =D
time for me to do work now....
arghs.
i demand an increase in the non material aspects of my living!

i miss the 11th guitar seniors!

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10:05 AM

thank you my pals =D
whenever i feel down, you guys are always around.
i really appreciate your goodwill =)

Econs..
i think that's my favourite subject.
i won't ever say i hate it again.
it's like even though i cannot do well.
it's so relevant to my career.
and that makes it very interesting.
this time round,
don't think can do well.
i know my facts.
but i lack the organisation skills.
haha.
never mind..
there's still time for the A's.
though i really wish to do well in school exams,
i guess,
time is not on my side.
so, A's, yeah A's..

maths..
before the maths and chem paper.
i was very much slacking.
studied only after 10.
maths i just read through.
halfway through the paper,
i kind of gave up.
15 minutes to the end,
i read the questions carefully and realised there were a couple of qustions which i can do.
managed to do one.
the other one got it wrong.
but given time, i think i should be able to get it.
haha.
result of me giving up..

chem..
i tried to memorize the mechanisms and all.
and yeah.
i kept telling myself i'm stupid.
this makes my learning worse actually.
but that's me - ever so pessimistic..
i always like to think on the bad side.
hehe.
think too much..
a distinct characteristic of cancers?
well anyway, the actual papers.
i really cannot do.
a definite U.

bio tomorrow.
felt very sian for the whole of today.
the time now is 10.45PM..
and i'm still left with like 3 and a half chapters?
haha.
i'm damn sian..

haha.
" like your never-say-die attitude"..
who says?
perhaps after the common tests,
i would get my fighting spirit back.
perhaps..
right now, i feel completely subdued.

actually. come think of it..
free radical mechanism can be applied?
it's like, why did i gain motivation all of a sudden?
from a lazy pupil in primary school, to earning a most hardworking girl award?
it was precisely because of the results i got.
that kind of self satisfaction, that made me work hard.
coming to a jc,
as i received thrash results each time,
perhaps this motivation has disapperared.
perhaps my energies were drained.
perhaps i'm just too stupid.
whatever it is,
i'm not doing well now.

if i cannot make it this year,
i will repeat another year.

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2:46 PM

i feel like the world's biggest fool..

my brain tells me to persevere on,
yet my heart,
has already,
given up.....

i will get straight Us...
=(

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3:55 PM