HOW I WISH... contact lenses
shades
a new guitar
a harmonica
musical box
bikini??? (wahahah, next year)
a billabong cap, not visor
a white dress
an overseas CIP trip
an overseas trip to BALI with friends
see hong junyang performing in my school
good results
highlighted hair
death note!!!!!
more plush toys!
no more pollution!
drum set
improve my pool skills?
be a better bowler =p
Hates(:
smokers!!!! that's all at the moment..
{{ Tuesday, October 02, 2007
i hate it.
maths today. i feel that the questions are kinda standard.. but i cannot do... i didn't practise enough...
it's like.. i'm finding trouble for myself. i jolly well know what kinda results i will get. and yet i did not work hard over the weekends. yet mr adrenaline deserted me.
it's too late to say this. but i can't help but feel.. it's damn wasted..
dropping to a poly? i'm so not gonna do that. yes, i'm not brainy.
but if i put in the same amount of hard work as the others, am i, to fail?
haha. secondary school. when i first dropped out from the top 5, my heart ached so much.. and right now, i cannot even be among the top 15, in my own class even.
what the hell la....
the battle between my demoralised soul and my laziness... the journey, the treacherous journey, what if i plunge, into an abysm? never to be seen? never to be heard? never to be cared? so fathomless, so alone, so petrified? when will i pick myself up? when will i get up from the debris? the debris of my torn sprit.. the fragments of my broken heart.
