one full day of school followed by guitar admin again..well, in this time of fear,when prayers so often prove in vain, haha, need lotsa support from the people around me.and here i would like to thank xinyi..it's like when i complain to her about the level of stress i'm facing as in like how much more work is waiting for me, the natural tendancy of every student (or nope, let me qualify that), of every hardworking but not-so smart-student, is to agree enthusiastically and go and blabbering about how much work she or he also have.but xinyi, she kindly gave me tips which i supposed i know on how to be time efficient. and the night after, she sent me an sms, i think it is related to managing time between guitar and studies. yup. and i think this simple gesture of hers greatly delights me. perhaps you guys may think it is nothing, but i'm different. i need all the support i can get. having tuition doesn't guarantee you an A. people with no tuition definitely can beat those who have. anyway, if tuition is so great, everyone will try to go tuition whether or not they have the financial means to do so.jc is the time in which i feel so badly looked down upon. my sheer success was regarded as everyone-can-do-it-if-they-want and my failure will be you-are-a-dumbass-better-worse-dead. the problem with me is, the more i think about it, the more intense the emotion. today i was told off.aimless, no plan. that's because i thought the other party knew what to get.i did want to ask from you.but ya ya. i got told off.right in front of others.again, the more i think about it, the more bu shuang i feel.but yeah my emotions fluctuate damn easily.i will be ok by tomorrow. jc, the half adult timeline, i think i'm more opened up to how the whole society fuctions now. i have a different kind of perception and attitude towards people in general. if i have become more evil, the society has transformed me.....lin is coming on thurs!yup, she has long changed her timing already.i just hope i can piece the best part of my life in sec school with the best aspect in jc.or sec school alone is enough, i guess..seriously, the idea of a failure from jc doesn't come from me alone.sometimes, people around me just drill that into my brain. if i had my concepts right,and i hope i will do it before the As,i will be like sala.giving hope.i can feel his genuine belief. and i believe i can spread his genuine belief,after i piece my broken pride.after cca admin is completely over,i hope the mood comes.let's see if i put my heart and soul into it,will i still be a moron. i'm not saying i'm not.i hope i'm not.but let's just see.Labels: volcano
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