HOW I WISH... contact lenses
shades
a new guitar
a harmonica
musical box
bikini??? (wahahah, next year)
a billabong cap, not visor
a white dress
an overseas CIP trip
an overseas trip to BALI with friends
see hong junyang performing in my school
good results
highlighted hair
death note!!!!!
more plush toys!
no more pollution!
drum set
improve my pool skills?
be a better bowler =p
Hates(:
smokers!!!! that's all at the moment..
{{ Thursday, May 22, 2008
=D
i love guitar more =D fancy me liking more, when i have stepped down.
yes.
i love guitar!! =D
i don't know whether going to school is more productive or not. now that i have grown lazier. and all i do is stare blankly at the papers..
i need my focus. do not ditch me please?
but going to school, yup talked a lot. but also seemed closer?
hehe.
GE RAWKS!
oh yeah, was at a little corner today. irritated by the ants. i just applied immerse pressure on 2 ants crawling near me.
i always tell myself. i'm doing the ants a service. why live in this world? this world is sick. if i have a chance, i wouldn't want to be born into this hectic place. and i always make it a point to kill the ants in a split second. so that they would not have to struggle with any pain.
but today, this ant came scurrying over. it seemed. sad. devasted rather. when it saw one of the dead corpses. it just went over and over this one special corpse. and i think, perhaps, that's his loved one.
aren't i just behaving like the barbaric plates in China? my fingers are like the tofu buildings. collapsing and crushing them alive.
looking at that worried ant, i was overwhelmed with a sense of guilt.
don't laugh at me. i did feel guilty.
i saw that ant carried that dead corpse and scurried off, far from my sight.
i felt like saying.
i'm sorry.
i have no right to deprive your chance to stay alive. i have no right to decide if death is a better option.
from now onwards, i promise not to kill any ants intentionally.
