HOW I WISH... contact lenses
shades
a new guitar
a harmonica
musical box
bikini??? (wahahah, next year)
a billabong cap, not visor
a white dress
an overseas CIP trip
an overseas trip to BALI with friends
see hong junyang performing in my school
good results
highlighted hair
death note!!!!!
more plush toys!
no more pollution!
drum set
improve my pool skills?
be a better bowler =p
Hates(:
smokers!!!! that's all at the moment..
{{ Saturday, September 06, 2008
congrats to mr sala for winning the most caring teacher award from NIE. =) for your information, it is actually very presetigious because only 11 out of 2000 nominations were chosen.
saw sala on tv last night and kept jumping non stop. really happy for him..
well, if i were to blog this yesterday, you would definitely see the emotions.
but now, sighs.
holidays is ending. what have i been doing?
it seems like, i can neither study like before, regardless of whether it is at home or in school..
am i bent on repeating?
why is it that failing, even getting zero no longer scares me? why is it that i no longer get that kind of anxiety even though i have some important tasks at hand? it has been such a long long time since i have last experienced a rush of adrenaline that is examination-related.
as i thought, previous words by people flowed through my mind.
"you will fail in jc. i will get my diploma. and you will be left with nothing if you fail your a's." back then, i was full of determination. fresh out of secondary school. highly confident and motivated. "come on man, i will show you idiot."
now? seems like the ball is flying straight to my face.
" don't worry lah, you are so hardworking. can lah." changed attitude. if i'm still like the old self, of course i can. singapore's education system is still very much stuffing that constrained amount of information into the brain. coming to jc, perhaps it is the work of the cytokines, perhaps it is that my stem cells have decreased significantly, my astrocytes are no longer produced as much.. or at least i feel..
i hate it when everyone around you says you are hardworking, when you are just the opposite. any idea how much i sleep? any idea how much i nap? if i do not go to school, i can fall asleep a few times in a day. i don't even know if my headaches are due to my over-restedness.
